Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Breath of Heaven

This is my prayer, "Breath of Heaven, hold me together, be forever near me. Breath of Heaven. Breath of Heaven. Lighten my darkness. Pour over me your holiness. For you're holy. Breath of Heaven."

We were enjoying a wonderful relaxing family Christmas, just the three of us when the phone call came. It's been a very stressful few weeks with moving, exams, morning sickness, etc. Today we were finally free of it all. Just soaking up each others presence and enjoying the expressions of Little Lady as she played with her new toys. And then the call. My obstitrician just called to say that my fetal screening tests results came back. It is showing positive for Spina Bifida. The world stopped spinning.

I have an emergency fetal assesment on December 30th at 1:30 in the afternoon. Please pray. I am hoping against all hope that this is a false positive. We are praying and hoping and trying not to consider all of the what ifs that terrify us.

Breath of Heaven Hold us together...be forever near us...


Diane said...

Merry Christmas, I'm praying for a false positive on that test and for patience as you wait for the fetal assessment. Hope you continue to enjoy Christmas with your family.

LeRoy & Faith said...

oh carrisa, i'm praying for you. i'm crying for you, and wish i could give you a big hug.

Evan and Mel said...

I am so sorry to hear that Carissa, you don't need another stressful pregnancy. We will be praying for you and Ernest, for you child and for a false positive.
I will also pray that god showers you with peace and patience as you wait for you fetal assessment.
Love you tons


jodifur said...

best wishes for you and your family. I'm not sure what the false positive rate is in that test, but I'm sure there are some.


Stephanie said...

Carissa! I recently "rediscovered" your blog (somehow I lost the link...and then I couldn't remember your blog's title, much to my dismay...anyway, I'm now subscribed and won't miss any of your posts...).

Congrats on your pregnancy. I'm thinking of you and I just sent a prayer up about the test results.

Merry Christmas to you and your sweet family. I look forward to "reconnecting" with you in the coming months.

Chelsa said...

also on the subject of prayer... God has really put it on my heart in the last few days to be praying for all these other pregnant gals that I know! I'd love to add your name to a list on my blog that I'm going to put up, but thought I better get everyone's permission first. If you don't want to be included on the public list that's fine, I'll still be praying for you and your sweet lil' one. Let me know, I'm so excited about this undertaking that God is putting on my heart.