I admit it. My daughter has not yet received her one year needles. Neither has she had the flu, chicken pox, or the meningitis vaccines. Up until now she has had all her shots about a month or two behind schedule but these next ones I'm really reluctant about. For one, most of them are now live vaccines so whereas before I was injecting her with nothing that could actually give her the disease...now I am.
This is terrifying to me as I had two cousins die because nobody knew they had an immune deficiency and after receiving all their shots....they caught every single disease and it killed them. I am haunted by this and no matter how many times my daughters pediatrician assures me he see's no signs of deficiency in her...I am still scarred.
For another thing...the link to acquiring autism is enough to make me say a firm and final "no". I realize that the link is contested and there is no concrete evidence to clarify if autism can definitely be linked to the vaccine....but I've read and listened to reports on enough cases to make me very cautious.
On top of this I've seen cousins and even my own brother have severe negative reactions to these vaccines. For example, a cousin of mine had horrible tantrums following the vaccine that left her head bloody from bashing it into the floor. Before hand she had no developmental or behavioral issues. My brother would not walk for a week after his shot and became seriously ill. I personally only had my MMR vaccine just before I got married and still got very sick. I was an ADULT for goodness sakes. It even messed with my menstrual cycle. What kind of havoc will happen in the body of a baby?
Even the thought of holding my daughter down so someone can stab her with droplets of a disease seems morally wrong and very sci-fi. Kind of like the scene from that movie with the clones...can't remember the name now...where they inject the clones to kill them but tell them they're sending them to a better place. I find it agonizing to pin my daughter down while they poke this massive needle into her tender flesh.
But I just don't know. Am I subjecting her to a worse fate by failing to vaccinate? Will she suffer more serious damage if by chance she would acquire these diseases?
What's your take? Did you/will you vaccinate? Why?
Editor's Update: I was just reading Wisconsin Mommy's blog and her post today is perfect for this topic. Head on over and check her out.